Dec 16 2008
This is not a normal weblog…
This is not really a normal weblog post: a) I am not writing about commuting today, although I do not always post directly about my weblog theme b) I am not writing about the Lemonade Awards I have not yet completed. I have come down with one of those nasty Winter/Christmas bugs the past few days. Yesterday I was out for the count. I could not think, let alone write. I slept a lot and pampered myself. A little self-love during the holidays goes a long way! Today on Today.Com, I am merely going to write about my past few days now that I can, at the very least, sit here and punch away at the keyboard.
I am going to start doing a little baking of treats over the next days, so I am hoping I am feeling up to speed by tomorrow. We are also going away this holiday three states away to my honey’s family, I have not met them as of yet… I have a lot to do this next week. Thinking I will have to take a week off from work-at-home duties! I crashed a few days ago. Although I have been fairly positive this Christmas season, I lost my step Father, who was like my Dad many years of my life, recently and sometimes the loss of loved ones for someone like me who has lost a lot of loved one’s early on in life is difficult during the holidays. I found myself weeping for unknown reasons this weekend, and thereafter, I became very ill with the flu.
Yesterday, my sister contacted me to let me know my brother-in-laws mother had been diagnosed with a brain tumor last week. She did not survive the 5-year marker as my Mom did–both diagnosed with lung cancer at different times. My Mom had survived almost 10 years since, it is sad that not everyone does. I have sent my condolences, yet I feel inside I am not ready for more of death-it is a part of life but I am enjoying life right now. Moreover, it has been a long time due to participating in others tragedies these past few years. I do not feel ready yet, to be supportive. Is it wrong to stand at a distance when I seem to have gone through it all before? I do not know, but I do know I do not feel ready for more. That is just how I feel today…
If it is going to cause you emotional harm, then you may not be capable of being supportive in any real way or you may end up needing support yourself. If it is going to be too much for you, maintain your distance. Sorry to hear you’ve had a rough time lately.
Thanks,pretty glum I was :( I agree with you. Back to Lemonade… After all,you are a nominee :) (Shhhh)